Ben Zhang :: Moods

And attention is a zero-sum game.

10:10:03 AM, Sunday, April 19, 2020

一眨眼就又到了一次 perf 的时间哪

14:12:25 PM, Monday, February 17, 2020

perf rating 不高,不开心,还是关心成绩的

11:45:10 AM, Thursday, October 24, 2019

别人都升职了,真羡慕

23:47:25 PM, Tuesday, October 22, 2019

所以 9 月底发生了什么呢:

  • 找到了以为丢了的 airpod,被猫弄到了沙发底下
  • 在好心的 Googler 的帮助下在 ebay 找到了车 HPFP 的替换品,打算修一修
  • 成为了 c-readability-approver

22:22:45 PM, Monday, September 30, 2019

所以 9 月份发生了什么呢:

  • 终于准备去 backpack,结果在 7800 ft 的地方又吐了
  • 车坏了,维修要 $2000,不维修感觉都卖不到 $2000
  • 工作忙的一塌糊涂,bug 连连
  • airpod 找不到了
  • 把自己锁在门外,回不进去家
  • 为一些莫须有的东西吵架

23:12:45 PM, Friday, September 20, 2019

最近特别压抑

23:04:30 PM, Sunday, September 15, 2019

工作了一年,还是穷的要死。为个破车这么纠结。

23:03:53 PM, Sunday, September 15, 2019

去看了 wicked,前半场好看!

以及偶尔需要艺术熏陶啊

23:19:36 PM, Saturday, August 24, 2019

加入公司一年了,时光流逝,日月如梭,说有成长,好像也非常有限啊。

08:48:50 AM, Wednesday, August 21, 2019

debug 了两天,发现是测量工具 (profiler)有问题。

强行为 bug 找了这么多借口。

23:30:53 PM, Tuesday, August 13, 2019

还是忍不住想吐槽组里的代码。unique_ptr 被 lambda capture by reference, excuse me?

10:00:58 AM, Saturday, August 10, 2019

工作环境的人际组成似乎有些微妙的变化。

还是太复杂了,我专心做好自己的事吧。

10:00:00 AM, Saturday, August 10, 2019

认识的一个我觉得各方面都很不错的以色列哥们居然被开了。组里一帮写出各种渣代码的人却还在。这是什么世道

09:58:54 AM, Saturday, August 10, 2019

发现还是 moods-old 好看

工作之后思考不足,生活无聊,好没乐趣

09:57:17 AM, Saturday, August 10, 2019

获得 First Aid / CPR / AED 证书

18:10:35 PM, Saturday, June 01, 2019

life gets busy (beyond management)

17:40:14 PM, Wednesday, May 22, 2019

记忆好差:不写下来,就都各种忘掉了

23:37:25 PM, Tuesday, May 07, 2019

睡眠质量好差

22:18:07 PM, Thursday, May 02, 2019

诶,爬了个 V5

23:30:49 PM, Thursday, April 25, 2019

贪恋陪伴

23:51:58 PM, Friday, February 22, 2019

吃了三碗腌笃鲜,边吃边看 umami 和 glutamate

21:41:43 PM, Sunday, February 10, 2019

喜欢 Ad Reinhardt 的 Abstract Painting

22:03:59 PM, Saturday, February 09, 2019

恩工作状态果然不一样,moods 完全荒芜了。坚持了五年多的习惯也是说没就没了啊

21:46:24 PM, Saturday, February 09, 2019

回了一趟伯克利,还是家的感觉啊

09:24:15 AM, Sunday, January 27, 2019

一不小心上了 V4,完成了一月的攀岩目标

22:57:36 PM, Friday, January 25, 2019

既然一生用过即逝,那不如。。。

14:04:50 PM, Sunday, January 20, 2019

突然发现好多人今年都有在微信上辞旧迎新

20:25:16 PM, Tuesday, January 01, 2019

感觉没有写 2018 年总结的心境

16:24:03 PM, Saturday, December 29, 2018

看 Pollan 的新书好有意思,how to change your mind

23:44:22 PM, Wednesday, December 26, 2018

好像 meditation 有了目标

23:19:23 PM, Monday, December 24, 2018

总会常常觉得一睡一醒,便是一个新的人生。这样的“新生”久了,就不记得以前(高中,大学,博士)的自己是什么样了。那个要做完形填空的年代。完形填空是什么鬼!?

09:30:32 AM, Sunday, December 23, 2018

最近好自闭

09:23:58 AM, Sunday, December 23, 2018

做了一个奇幻的梦,梦醒之后已经不知道现在是何年何月了。

梦里回到了国内,依稀仿佛是大四,不过有些考试内容又像是高三。回国的原因是交换结束。而交换本来只有一个学期,被延长到两个学期,回到国内后很怀念国外的生活。对了,回去后还在攀岩,不记得水平怎么样,唯一有印象的是岩馆的路线换的太勤。

记得以前还做过一次梦,清华毕业后回到高中再考一次大学。那种我明明已经上过清华了又要再考一次的心态,特别神奇。

梦都太真实,以至于醒来之后好久才缓过来已经 8102 年了。如果说梦境是平行世界的话,能一撇其他世界的自己,也是很开心的。

08:29:52 AM, Sunday, December 23, 2018

然后 12 月的前一半也马上要过去了

21:42:03 PM, Tuesday, December 11, 2018

我去,11 月结束了啊

23:15:25 PM, Thursday, November 29, 2018

老了,记性不太行。。。一周前写的

早上好失望 10:46:14 AM, Sunday, November 11, 2018

现在就已经记不起是失望什么了

10:49:22 AM, Sunday, November 18, 2018

去朋友家吃饭,被她厨房的各种 organization impressed。我也要 become organized

10:30:14 AM, Sunday, November 18, 2018

什么时候可以爬 v5 呢

00:07:24 AM, Friday, November 16, 2018

偶尔产生的生活无趣感

23:58:29 PM, Tuesday, November 13, 2018

大家来我家做客,又是吃又是打包的,LOL

22:41:31 PM, Sunday, November 11, 2018

讲到对我影响深的人,谢谢 msh

21:33:36 PM, Sunday, November 11, 2018

早上好失望

10:46:14 AM, Sunday, November 11, 2018

聊到感恩节,发现以前感恩节从来没有出门逛过

最喜欢的就是过节日了,所有人都开开心心的,剩下我一个人呆在 lab,享受孤独。最可怕的就是累的睡着后的突然醒来,很能引发对人类存在等等问题的终极思考。 22:56:52 PM, Thursday, November 26, 2015

19:42:58 PM, Wednesday, November 07, 2018

更新下主页和一篇讲咖啡的 blog

23:28:41 PM, Sunday, November 04, 2018

inception(我是不是太善变了)

09:44:32 AM, Sunday, November 04, 2018

有两个新的 project idea:brocoli man 和 camper van

14:37:13 PM, Saturday, November 03, 2018

跟人吃饭聊天,发现好多以前在伯克利会做的事(比如尝试各种 prosciutto)不会再做了,原来一直觉得少了生活,是这样的感觉啊

23:50:38 PM, Friday, November 02, 2018

明早做个 focaccia

23:49:22 PM, Friday, November 02, 2018

又过去一周,又好像很有故事;又好像极其平淡

23:13:38 PM, Tuesday, October 30, 2018

太坏旧了

21:02:20 PM, Wednesday, October 24, 2018

以前特别喜欢看万万、报告老板和暴走,现在都没了。听说国内大家都刷抖音,流量都被吸走了,不再是那个网络短视频盛行的年代。时代发展变化真快啊。

真的好喜欢报告老板

22:15:24 PM, Monday, October 22, 2018

好久没有更新 moods。发现买了新 iPhone,真的更加爱拍照了。。。有些有意思的都发在 instagram 了,比如这周末的木匠活

22:12:11 PM, Monday, October 22, 2018

所以我开始做 2019Q1 的活了么。。。

21:21:22 PM, Wednesday, October 17, 2018

好想去意大利住一段时间

20:56:21 PM, Friday, October 12, 2018

黄 + 蓝 = 绿

20:10:02 PM, Sunday, September 30, 2018

wake me up when september ends x4

Wake me up when September ends! x3
十月定个小目标:10/05 作息。
09:44:25 AM, Saturday, September 30, 2017
对 research 没有一点热情了。还说什么 wake me up。
21:38:25 PM, Thursday, October 01, 2015
Wake me up when September ends!
整理一下实验室的桌子,回去理理自己的桌子,新的一个月!
7:51:07 PM, Tuesday, October 1, 2013

九月好像 finance 发展的并不太行,反而出去 hike 了三次,爬了个 v4,和将近完成 5.10d。

19:30:37 PM, Saturday, September 29, 2018

Q4 还没开始,我一不小心就把 Q4 的活干掉了。。

23:13:34 PM, Wednesday, September 26, 2018

#Google 是厨艺训练学院 上班时间去 KitchenSync 学做 macaron

22:18:38 PM, Monday, September 24, 2018

所以周末都干了什么呢? 周五出去 camping。周六 hiking,走到晚上 9 点,大晚上路上见到 tarantula 真是吓人。每次 hike 完第二天去爬墙都有惊喜,周日在 PG 刷了一个 V4。中秋节快到了,周日还做了蛋黄莲蓉月饼和酥皮月饼,这次酥皮做的特别成功,烤出来没忍住就吃了四个。

22:17:41 PM, Monday, September 24, 2018

本来白天有个什么槽想吐一吐,奈何没带自己电脑。等到晚上回到家,就忘了要吐什么槽了。

22:04:48 PM, Thursday, September 20, 2018

Sweet Maria’s 真是名声在外。

上 espresso 的课,跟老师扯淡,说自己 roast coffee,他第一反应就是 Sweet Maria's。

22:44:23 PM, Wednesday, September 19, 2018

看了 The Dawn Wall,向 Tommy 和 Kevin 致敬

22:42:07 PM, Wednesday, September 19, 2018

诶,看到一个 SWE 和前台小妹秀恩爱,吃饭用一个盘子

21:35:19 PM, Monday, September 17, 2018

宅了一天,刷完了 Bojack Horseman S05,第二集 Vietnam 大赞,马男的独白 Free Churro 大赞,还有各种文化细节梗。好久没有这么颓了。

21:35:05 PM, Sunday, September 16, 2018

骑车、训练、工作、爬墙,life is good

23:46:14 PM, Thursday, September 13, 2018

#谷歌羊毛 喝到了 1977 年的 rum

23:15:56 PM, Wednesday, September 12, 2018

生活太过忙碌,忘记了记录。过了一个极其丰富的周末:周六去 volunteer 修自行车,然后和朋友去吃饭;周日走了一个 Skyline to the Sea,走完去了海底捞;然后周一把被拖走的车赎了回来。

丰富的代价是好多大洋。不得不说,湾区吃饭真他妈的贵。

研究 finance,搞投资,省不出来钱拿什么投资。想想还要修车,买 pannier,唉

23:16:19 PM, Tuesday, September 11, 2018

在看关于 ASMR 的报道(Netflix 的 Follow This),真是打开了新世界

22:33:43 PM, Wednesday, September 05, 2018

硬着头皮写 app engine(不想写啊)

23:00:20 PM, Tuesday, September 04, 2018

九月想研究研究 finance

22:35:05 PM, Monday, September 03, 2018

长周末三天吃了一顿小肥羊和两顿 BBQ

22:33:50 PM, Monday, September 03, 2018

在伯克利逛超市是一种享受一种探索,连以前不高兴去的前 Andronico’s (现 Safeway Community Store)都逛得津津有味

22:00:09 PM, Sunday, September 02, 2018

回到伯克利,摸了摸 Indian Rock,不知道什么时候能找人带着走几个户外的石头呢

21:58:46 PM, Sunday, September 02, 2018

这样简简单单的关系挺好的

23:47:32 PM, Thursday, August 30, 2018

竟然要在课上讨论我之前的 workshop paper

20:54:50 PM, Monday, August 27, 2018

写的 USCIS crawler 有人用,然后给我买了杯咖啡,好开心!

22:38:20 PM, Thursday, August 23, 2018

在家坐等 EAD 投递。终于 officially Googler!

00:21:20 AM, Thursday, August 23, 2018

入职都这么 drama,账户因为上周没有开始而被 suspend,搞得我下午门也刷不开,网页也没得看,只好去晒太阳~

23:04:54 PM, Monday, August 20, 2018

最近一段时间,压力特别大,大概是太看重 SIGCOMM 了,不太淡定。得靠 melatonin 入睡。

22:20:08 PM, Sunday, August 19, 2018

今天早上起来特别累,中午睡了一会儿,然后醒来,照照镜子,发现自己老了好几岁的感觉

15:57:48 PM, Thursday, August 16, 2018

我还能做什么呢

13:42:12 PM, Tuesday, August 14, 2018

anxious

17:54:40 PM, Monday, August 13, 2018

明天去 Shoreline 放风筝

23:01:56 PM, Saturday, August 11, 2018

完美的一天:chez panisse,清理实验室,highline kites,打羽毛球!

22:52:27 PM, Saturday, August 11, 2018

Berkeley and nearby cities, Emeryville, Oakland, Albany, El Cerrito, are by far the best place I have lived. Despite living on a budget as a poor graduate student, I still felt great happiness, because of many local stores: Monterey Market, Berkeley Bowl, Cheese Board, Acme Bread, Blue Bottle Coffee, Sweet Maria’s, Yaoya-san, the Local Butcher Shop and more that I refrained from listing due to space constrains.

15:40:28 PM, Friday, August 10, 2018

悲催的人品,周围的 OPT 都批了,我被华丽的跳过

14:56:39 PM, Thursday, August 09, 2018

有点崩溃了

10:55:01 AM, Thursday, August 09, 2018

等 EAD 等到地老天荒。跪求啊。。

11:54:14 AM, Wednesday, August 08, 2018

睡眠不好,下午就犯困

16:27:16 PM, Monday, August 06, 2018

  1. Open-minded
  2. Continue arguing with numbers and facts.

16:20:09 PM, Monday, August 06, 2018

我要赶紧写完 thesis 玩风筝!

11:33:02 AM, Sunday, August 05, 2018

八月真颓废

tidying my life up

10:45:32 AM, Sunday, August 05, 2018

以及正式成为无业游民一枚

10:47:36 AM, Wednesday, August 01, 2018

开始可以爬 V1 了,开心

10:34:09 AM, Wednesday, August 01, 2018

羡慕工作的人们

15:07:00 PM, Monday, July 30, 2018

做梦回到清华,吃个饭的时间就把我的 BMC 车子给丢了,那叫一个伤心啊。。。然后就醒了,想起来自行车在家里的客厅,好开心

10:24:07 AM, Sunday, July 29, 2018

吃了 Cheeseboard Pizza,心满意足

13:58:18 PM, Saturday, July 28, 2018

好想逛 Berkeley Bowl

11:30:08 AM, Friday, July 27, 2018

去了趟 LA,心情大好,尤其是,相对之下,觉得南湾没有那么热了(南加太热)

11:20:39 AM, Friday, July 27, 2018

穿着 ghost whisper 来图书馆才没觉得冷。。。

11:13:06 AM, Tuesday, July 24, 2018

OPT 有点方

09:50:28 AM, Monday, July 23, 2018

负债近万

16:30:30 PM, Friday, July 20, 2018

真好!大家最后都很成功

11:08:38 AM, Friday, July 20, 2018

南湾不适应,上火起泡口腔溃疡

11:08:03 AM, Friday, July 20, 2018

搬家真是累

00:00:20 AM, Monday, July 16, 2018

好感伤啊,看以前的老照片,不带眼镜的我还是挺好看的么

14:56:42 PM, Wednesday, July 11, 2018

half dome, check!

15:24:33 PM, Monday, July 09, 2018

今天写了 8 个 Pomodoro,也就是 8 段话(一页半)

13:14:24 PM, Thursday, July 05, 2018

被 4K 屏惯坏了,实验室的 QHD 没法看

10:37:48 AM, Thursday, July 05, 2018

Red Door Coffee 好评。进门看到用 ACME 的面包,拿铁的牛奶甜甜的!

08:48:40 AM, Tuesday, July 03, 2018

Fuck! Facebook shutting down Moves!

08:46:26 AM, Tuesday, July 03, 2018

好想 grow Scoby and make kombucha!

23:57:31 PM, Sunday, July 01, 2018

所以我的 ukulele 和 garmin 就只能暂放一边了

23:24:11 PM, Sunday, July 01, 2018

Basic Stained Glass Making

7 月 mini project: tiffany stained glass

23:20:55 PM, Sunday, July 01, 2018

发现自己做的 pizza 好好吃!

虽然面发的有点弱。以后不搞 natural yeast 了。SAF 多好!

23:15:13 PM, Sunday, July 01, 2018

烧了好多钱,得吃一阵土了

23:03:31 PM, Sunday, July 01, 2018

发现 budget 不太够做 stained glass。。。

16:46:16 PM, Sunday, July 01, 2018

预计四个小时的 hiking trail 走了三个小时

可以的

02:14:12 AM, Sunday, July 01, 2018

Recreation.gov operational hours are in EST (Eastern Standard Time.)

麻蛋!难怪扣了我那么多钱

23:16:50 PM, Friday, June 29, 2018

今天怎么这么背!

车,衣服,抽签,心态,房子

22:31:00 PM, Friday, June 29, 2018

恩,写论文没法让我 high 起来,特别没有动力;然后也没有特别紧迫的 deadline。

16:14:21 PM, Friday, June 29, 2018

给 recreation.gov 打电话,做了三道 survey,然后就电话就挂了。。。

14:57:40 PM, Friday, June 29, 2018

看完《后来的我们》,有评论说很像《甜蜜蜜》。不过曼玉有豹哥(豹哥才是真主角)。

小时候看《七夜雪》特别怕错过。其实错过不见得是最坏,毕竟都幸福就不是故事了。

22:50:08 PM, Tuesday, June 26, 2018

有朋自远方来,不亦乐乎

09:53:14 AM, Monday, June 25, 2018

找房子略心累,唉,要求太高:

  1. w/d in unit
  2. cats friendly
  3. prefer townhouse
  4. bathroom/kitchen spacious
  5. within 5 miles radius to Google Sunnyvale
  6. under $3000

10:24:52 AM, Thursday, June 21, 2018

专心认真写论文(好没有动力啊)

15:15:20 PM, Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Thesis Repulsor Field

13:58:10 PM, Thursday, June 14, 2018

诶 为什么 没更新

原来 rebase 到一半,忘了进行下去

16:12:54 PM, Tuesday, June 12, 2018

两年前的今天去三番跑了个半马,刚刚发现 Sportsbasement 的存在!

11:17:29 AM, Monday, June 11, 2018

随意搜了下 “Ben Zhang",发现其他几个同名的哥们儿都好酷!

11:15:30 AM, Thursday, June 07, 2018

去了趟法庭处理超速罚单,因为警官没出现,直接 dismiss 了。经历还蛮有意思的。

同一批处理了五个 traffic trial,第一个警官和被告都没出现,第二个警官没出现,第三个都出现了但是警官说“我不记得当时发生了什么所以就这样吧”,第四个警官非常认真地陈述了证词然后被告完全无力反击,我是第五个。

15:57:23 PM, Friday, June 01, 2018

Johnson & Wales University International Symposium on Bread!

21:44:59 PM, Wednesday, May 30, 2018

有生之年可以再看鲁殿

20:29:35 PM, Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Today’s mission: learn double-entry accounting

12:02:59 PM, Friday, May 25, 2018

remove child from parent with fork made my day

21:16:13 PM, Thursday, May 24, 2018

back to work/life

18:37:57 PM, Thursday, May 24, 2018

沟通心累

11:11:45 AM, Wednesday, May 23, 2018

想起来 晚礼服 bowtie 的约定

13:06:12 PM, Friday, May 11, 2018

在 downtown 走了一圈,发现店都不认识。出世太久 = =

22:05:18 PM, Thursday, May 10, 2018

本来还想联系的一个 Google Researcher,在 NSDI 的 call for paper 上发现加入了 Twitter。。。

12:26:04 PM, Thursday, May 10, 2018

Vale, old self

11:48:04 AM, Thursday, May 10, 2018